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水瓶座的人富知性理性，善於分析與思考，具有思想家的氣質，因此天生有清晰冷靜的頭腦和豐富的創造力。水瓶座的你（妳）感覺十分敏銳，喜歡追求新奇的事物。由於這個特質，你（妳）也是善變的。然而只要是自己有興趣的事，便會積極的投入、鑽研，而有傑出的表現。思想超前，理性自重的星座。一樣的不愛受約束，一樣的博愛，但他們還是不同於射手座；他們較著重於精神層次的提升，是很好的啟發對象。

     It has been number of days Steve does not contact with me, I wonder why in my mind, a lot of question marks appeared and i also confused to msg him, I am actually waiting for his concern all the while. Time pass, and I felt mad for it in my heart, but my brain keeps remind myself, i trust him fully, I cannot angry and feeling bad for little things like this, I still remember what had he promise, what had he said to me, I have to be tough…but when the while i remind myself those, my heart still feeling uncomfort, wondering why why why…why he does not care about me at all? why he does not come online? why he doesnt msg me? call me? Haihzz..feeling so stress in studies and yet he still bring me all the bad feelings.

      Luckily, he did msg me after third day when i was sleeping, i guess, reading his msg the next morning, feeling touch..but i still feeling loneliness, feel empty in my heart. Seeing my frens around fully covered by LOVE, the more i feel myself empty, seeing the fully care from their bf, i feel myself so pity, no one cares about me, concern me, not even ask me what i doing all these while. haihz.. the more i feel stress, the more i think of him…thinking the time we have together everyday, stick to each others, now then i start to realise how important the role he plays in my life, and just start to treasure him, treasure the time we having together, i thought long distant is good for us, but i found that sometimes i meet loneliness especially the time i need him. I miss him a lot, a lot than out of my expectation.

      I feel so sad that what had happen just now when i got troubles approached in sudden, and i miss him again. How i wish he knows all about my feelings. Seeing the laptop he bought me, how i wish he is in Msn.. haih..i wanted to let him know what had happen to me so much, I have already out of control and got up the fon and called him. He feels shocked when i called, I heard his voice! A long distant call but he seens so near to me. While he called me, baby.. i cried..i cried even while talking to him, aiks. I tried hard to cover and i continued my talk..i actually still crying while talking to him, luckily he doesnt know about it. I scared he knows, and he worries for me later. I feel really really much better after talking to him, all the stress i hav had release, all the sadness has clear, I feel myself full of power again. Just think of what i have done all these while just worry too much and too miss him. even now, i wonder, why i will cry. ha ha..why am  so weak. I even forgot that i promised to him that i will be tough and always be steady. Haihz.. i am too stress maybe. However, dear, u light up my life again and again, I cant text the feelings i hav for you, what i can said is, thank you.I feel really much better now =p

      Really thanks my two best frens, Rebecca and Siu Xian, accompany me for these days. really have fun being together and crazy together. lol..u girls did fulfil my loneliness and share my stressful, hehe..muaks..

     My parents come back lw, mum back with a trophy, a hamper and rm100 cash as her prize. Haih..i can have rest dy, haha!! By the way, found that I lazy to work on my assignment since rest for few days after mid term exam. Haih..feel really guilty if i don get myself serious on my studies ar, stress for the units i have for this semester. wondering how can i pass for each units, so nervous ler..gonna suffer for another one month plus again!! June..its seen like long to go for holidays, but its soon to hav my final exam, wondering when can i finish my revision and relax.

        Now i am waiting for coming end of June lor..which i hav my holidays and Steve will come back then, wanted to see him so much..and then can go travel at Kl on July with frens, wow..really happy when think of that..haha..haih..need to have my suffer days 1st ar…hope I can get a pass for every units then is enough for me lw..haih~~

    A lazy day for me, parents went to sibu since yesterday, and yet i got to take care the home, my bros. Early morning get up from bed, then i think of got to clean up everything at home, off the light outside, wash the clothes, wash plates, sweeping, tidying, cleaning..wa..so many works i have to do. Feel bad that my brothers and sis refused to help me. I found out my car not in my car park, i wondering where is my brother going in this early morning again. he spends most of the time outside since he knows to drive, i really can  say nothing for it, cant control him. The day without my parents, the more i can do nothing for my bro, sometimes really worry about him, worry about he turns bad and doesnt care lot for his studies. Hoever, i dont dare to tell my mum about it because don wan her to worry for us, and concentrate on her singing competition.

      The day without my parents really weird. I feel that nobody care of us, start realise mum has to do so many houseworks each days. Dad, mum, i miss u.. Hope my mum sing well in her singing competition at Sibu and perform nicely. Faster come back…i need a rest..hehe..

    I felt happy and enjoy this whole day, really glad that be together with my best buddies. We spent time together, playing together, eating, watching movies, seeing frens, chit chatting, taking pics, wow..really long time didnt feel so relax for my busy life..Huuu~~~ realease from stress..i am really happy with our frenship are still constant like last time when we are still in secondary sch, no..its getting better and closer..the only change is, we bcome more mature and know to treasure each others..hehe, i really appreciate everything that i have in my life, my frens, my family, my love one..However, i hope this will last forever, i try to imagine how were us after 10 years? is it coming out gathering with kids?hehe..mayb our topic will focus on our kids then..lol.. how about the other 20 years? lol.. Frens…hope we are still have gathering for our 10 years…20…30…40…50…years after this..=) Dear all my frens, u are always one of my best present for my whole life..frens forever!! muakszz!!

      I just realised that it has been few weeks i have not step out from home other than go campus, go fren’s home do assignments..feeling myself very stressful plus facing loneliness after Steve left, I miss him a lot more than i expected. I found that my life is getting tough that I am still at the stage of growing. I got to face everything in front of me to get to another dream land. I wish to be a superwoman, fly over the stress, thelone liness nights, even fly over to Aus be with my dear, ha ha ha! wake up la.. kekeke.. worries towards my studies and i feel myself not manage to get over this sem, I just wan a pass…haihzz.. Everyone seens smart a lot if compared with me, i really stress seeing them have such a smart brain, hai..what is actually inside my brain, i wonder? why we are all same human being but its different in thinking, talents…why i am not the smart one like them? haiii…so envy, what can i do?

      I tried hard to study hard and work smart on my studies, i tell myself i cant fail for any units..eventhough it seens hard to pass.. Dear my guardian angel, please do hear my prayers that give me strength to study smart, and i also wish my dear be blessed to get over the worries and stress.  God, I really hope everything is fine and we are manage to get over it under ur bless…Loving you my God.

不知不觉  我们在一起  已经过了多久 

不知不觉  你离我而去  我还在梦里

我们的距离  几百千万里 

不是疏远 而是思念

不是陌生 而是发现你的重要

每天在一起 我觉得平常

但 没有你在身边 我少了依靠 少了表情

我后来才发现  你的存在 

对我来说 多么重要 

我担心你 我关心你

我珍惜你 我在乎你

因为我真的不知不觉深深爱上了你

你的关怀 你的照顾 你的在乎

我终于深深发现 深深感动

我相信 不 我们都相信

我们的相遇 是缘分

不管分开 拙折 考验

我们都要在一起 

I dont know..

I dont know since when i know myself…

I dont know since when i get to know you…

I dont know since when i know to miss…

I dont know since when i know to love…

I dont know since when i know to laugh …

I dont know since when i know to cry…

I dont know since when i know the feeling of sad…

I dont know since when i know the feeling of pain…

I dont know since when i know the feeling of dissapointed…

I dont know since when i feel excited caused of you…

I dont know since when i am in love with you…

I dont know since when i understand you…

I dont know since when i know to read what in your mind…

I dont know since when you have changed…

I dont know since when you know to lie to me…

I dont know since when i realised it…

I dont know since when i have lost confident…

I dont know since when i start not to trust you..

I dont know since when i give up on you…

I dont know since when i believe in love…

And… as well as…

I dont know when can i trust you and accept you again…

I really dont know…

L-O-V-E —-> what does it mean by actually???

Long long time ago, somebody told me, love is powerful, love will light up ur life…

after few months, the same person told me, love is hurting, will lead one into pain..

In the bible, love is patient and kind, it is not jealous or conceited or proud, love is eternal, it does not keep a record og wrongs…

For me, LOVE, has different meanings for different ages, now i slowly realised that what is actually love means by. When fall in love, i can never equal the love u give and the love u receive. Love is not envy, everyone are free for love. No matter who u love, u can never regret for what u feel.

Ages bring me into mature, when the moment i know to love someone, i know to cry for him, i laugh for him, i worry for him, i’m waiting for him, i getting mad for him… Once i love somebody, i will have more expression cuz of him…

Love will always end with being together? Feel really sad if know both are belovers but ends with seperation after having long distant. Is that call true love? Which type of love will last forever? I am really blur on this, when do i need to prepare for my coming seperation for my beloved one? Only god will decide for us…

F-R-I-E-N-D what does it mean by actually? For me, the day bfore this,i think friend is just somebody who go tru our life and it is just a fate if we meet somebody but not others. Anyway, after I myself going tru an accident, i realised that friend is one of the important character in my life and friendship is always beautiful. I kinda guilty of what i have done to my friends, yea, i will always say that miss you,hugss,god bless…but i will never know to taking good care for friends around me, i will ONLY appear and concern them after smth happen. WHY?! Today, i heard from my sis, she sms me from KL, she told me, one of her good fren just passed away in an accident at aus and two sis were badly injured. One of the sis is my fren too,my brain just turn all into question marks,WHY? why does it happen!!?? i really shock of that,feel very down,i just sitting there and think tru everything, if i were my sis,and i heard smth happen like this, what will i feel? aiks..i really cant stop my thinking IF smth happen on my very good friend!How sudden is it the news, and  i think tru…when is the last time i meet my good friends? my buddies?? my BEST friendsss?? how long already is it i never gather all my good friends?? oh..i can imagine if this thing happen on one of them!! I really really can feel that… FRIENDS are so SO SO SO IMPORTANt!! missing all my frenss.. haih..wondering is that late to be awake now..? Sorry, my friendssssssss…. love you all…